RaenaBelle, it’s your turn fur some lap luvvin’ time with mommy.
It’s ‘bout time. But why is she so sad sissy? I’s know the weather has made her pains more and her teeths are hurtin’, but those things don’t usually make her be so sad?.
Oh Raena, you know mommy luvs you very much, right?
Of course, sissy. And I’s luvs mommy verrrrrrrrrrrry much too. I’s so happy that she’s mine’s mommy. I’s try to show her how much I’s luvs her every day.
She knows Raena. She’s sad right now, cuz befur you, me had a big sisfur who mommy luvved very much. They had been together a really long time. And then one day, God called Lexi to heaven. That broke mommy’s heart. Tomorrow will mark 1 year since sis Lexi left us. And tho’ you nor me will ever be Lexi, it’s our job to help ease mommy’s pain from losin’ her.
Should we be doin’ somethin’ special, sissy?
Nope Raena, that’s the beauty of luv. All you have to do is be yourself. As much as we luv mommy, she luvs us. And all we need to do is just show mommy we luv her. Maybe some extra purrs and cuddles, but we luv those too.
Dear furiends, ya’ may have noticed we’ve been a little quieter the last few days. Well, mommy’s been a little sad and down and reminiscin’ ‘bout times past. Raena and me have been getting’ a lot of extra luvvin’, and we’ve been returnin’ it in spades. Mommy wrote a poem to sissy the other day, and we thought we’d share it with ya’ll today. Fur those of ya’ that joined us in the last year, you may not ‘member sis Lexi, but she will always live on in our hearts. We do hope that you will pardon our reflection on such an amazin’ soul. Sis Lexi will always be the Gold Standard by which all Service Cats will be measured. Her luv and devotion to mommy, knew no bounds. Mommy says that same luv exists in all of us, and she is so blest to be the recipient of that luv time and again.
Goodnight My Sweet
Goodnight sweet Lexi
Close your eyes and sleep now
Rest your tired and weary body
I’ll be alright, somehow.
I will hold you in my heart,
Where you can never die
I’ll remember you forever
Go ahead and close your eyes.
You’ve been with me thru it all, it seems
Ups and downs, and all the in betweens.
We held on to each other
We had so many plans, and dreams
I never thought this day would come
When you’d leave me all alone
I know you didn’t want to go
With me, you’d found your home
But time slows for no one
And this world doesn’t care
Who might need you
To always be near
So close your eyes now sweet Lexi
Rest your tired and weary body
Time will never separate us
Nor will the heavens or the stars
You will always be with me
Forever in my heart
In each and every memory
We’ll never be apart
And when you awake
On the other side
Wait for me my darling
I won’t be far behind
Goodnight sweet Lexi
This world is still unkind
Close your eyes and sleep now
I won’t be far behind.
©Audra High 3/8/2017
(Raena wipes the tears from mommy’s eyes, and cleans the salty water from her paw and looks up at her.)
We luvs you very much mommy.
I love you girls very much too. Raena, you and Dezi are the greatest blessings in my life. I will always miss Lexi, and those that went before. But I will cherish every moment I have with ya’ll.
While mommy wrote this poem fur sis Lexi, we know a lot of you have lost luvved ones and feel that despair. We dedicate it to all those who have known that luv and lost it. Purrlease know, you can find that luv again just like mommy has with me and Raena. We’re sending out big hugs to you all.
Till the next time………………………………………Be Blest!!!
Dezi: Vibrant Blue
Raena: Navy Blue
Mommy A: Black
Luv and Hugs and Kitty Kisses
Deztinee and RaenaBelle
Well by the time you read this, I will be in heaven with minez brofurs and Shad awaitin’ the time when mommy and sis Dezi join us; and mommy will be a mess. Like my brofurs who have gone befur me, I didn’t wanna leave mommy. My heart didn’t wanna let go. But my body just couldn’t keep up. I just kept getting weaker and weaker. Fankfully sis Dezi has learned all I could teach her and she can now pass on that knowledge to her new sisfur and help mate to take care of mommy. Least that’z after she getz over the confusion. I hadn’t been able to drive mommy’s wheelchair fur a few weeks, but I could still give her massages and help Dezi get mommy outta bed. I even tried to help sis Dezi with mommy in the shower today; I just wasn’t strong enuff to get in the tub. Even tho’ mommy cried and would tell me to save my strength I just couldn’t let down on all my duties. I will always be a Service cat. I luv my mommy so much and she gave me the beztezt life a kitty could have ever asked fur. Ya’ know I wasn’t s‘posed to live, so havin’ almost 17 years of luvs and cuddles? Well what more could a motherless kit have asked fur? Getting’ old shure wasn’t fun, and havin’ kidney disease on top of it just wasn’t fair. But mommy always said life wasn’t fair and that we just had to make the beztezt of what we had. My mommy is very wise and cuz of her and her attitude, I had a little more than a year of life after that dreaded diagnosis.
In my last year I got to go on a great adventure called BlogPaws. And cuz of all my wunnerful unkles and awnties I got lots of toys, cat trees, noms, treats and most of all lots and lots of luvs. You know I luvs you all very very much; and I’z countin’ on ya’ to take care of mommy, sis Dezi and whoever comes to live with them next. I know that mommys heart is breakin’ right now, and she feels so terribly guilty fur havin’ to get another kitty. But she has so much luv to give it wouldn’t be fair to ask her not to share it. And Dezi needs the help. Trust me. I’z taught her all I know but the girl can be a bit daft sometimes. And her attention span can sometimes wane. And then of course, mommy ain’t getting’ any younger, spryer or nimbler, so she’s gunna need a lot of help in the years to come.
So I guess I should get to my last will and testament huh? To my sweet bootyful sisfur Dezi…I really do luv ya’ sis. I leave you with our mommy and her heart. Her hearts broken right now, so be gentle. She luvs you more than her own life, just as she luvs me. And she will awlways do what’s beztezt fur ya’ and never ever leave ya’. Take good care of her, yous the head cat in charge now. Pass along the lessons I taught ya’ and find that happy balance to let your new helper know you luv ‘em but that you are the Queen. And Dezi, do luv them, cuz mommy’s gonna need you both like she needed you and me.
To all our sweet dear furiends, awnties and unkles…Remember, I luvs you awl so much I could never really express how I feel in mere words. But trust me, the luvs run deep; and mommy and sis Dezi luvs ya’ the same. These last couple of years have been so amazin’. I never knew there were so many pawsum peeps still left in the world. Fank you so very much fur all you did fur me and my furmily. I only hope and purray you will continue to luv mommy and sis Dezi. And when they innerduce Dezi’s new helper, I purray you luv her too. She’s gonna have to be speshul to put up with Dezi. (mol)
To my successor…I leave you mommy, sis Dezi and all our wunnerful furiends. Be patient with them, they’re goin’ thru a tough time right now, but they luv you and will give you the beztezt life ever. Give mommy all your luv and she’ll return it in spades. You’re gonna get lots of cuddles and luv. And yes, you can sleep on the big bed. In fact you’ll be ‘spected to sleep there. Mommy’s happiest when she’s surrounded by furry purrers. The only place that be off limits is the kitchen counter. Dezi is a real Southern Belle Prima Donna and now that she’s the Queen, she’s purrobly gonna have the big head fur a while; but just hang in there, she’s a great sisfur and has so much to teach you. And when she luvs, she luvs with her whole bein’. You may not realize it yet, but you hit the jackpot.
Last but certainly not da least, mommy. I luv you so much mommy. I’z so sorry I had to leave you; I wanted to be with you furever and ever and someday we will be. Fank you fur fightin’ fur me when I was a baby. Fank you fur the life you gave me. And fanks fur fightin’ fur me in the end. You awlway worried that you didn’t give me enuff cuz you didn’t have money. But mommy, all I ever needed was the luv you gave me. And that you did. I was so blest to have you fur my mommy. My life was so full of luvs and adventure. And you never broke your purromisse…you Never left me behind. Havin’ you with me at the end was my life comin’ full circle. I know that tellin’ ya’ not to cry won’t work. But ifin ya’ can manage thru the tears to ‘member my life, and celebrate it with joy. Mommy we had almost 17 full years together. I’z sorry I couldn’t hold out another month, my heart was strong but my body just gave out. I was so tired. Purrlease luvs me enuff to luvs again. You have so much luvs to give. I leave you with Dezi. Mommy she’s a sensitive one you know and you gotta bounce back or she won’t. She needs you to be strong. Even broken, mommy, your heart is so full there’s purrlenty of room fur another luv. I know that in my last days when you thought I wasn’t lissenin’ you told God to make Dezi stronger cuz no other kitty would be able to do what I have done fur you. And that’s just not true. Somewhere is the purrfect kitty just waitin’ fur you. I will always be with you in your thoughts and memories. And I will be waitin’ here in heaven fur you when it’z your time.
I Leave You With
Mommy, I leave you my heart, I know yours is broken.
Mine is purrfect, You filled it with love.
Mommy, I leave you my eyes, I know yours are filled with tears.
Mine see purrfectly, Cuz they see from my heart.
Mommy I leave you with the comfort you once gave to me,
It will keep you safe, as you did for me.
I gave you my life, and would gladly do it again.
Because the life you gave me, was full of love with no end.
I asked God to give you peace,
And to wrap you in His arms;
The way you cradled me,
So tender and warm.
I asked the breeze, to blow gently in your ear;
The way you used to whisper, That you’d always be near.
I asked the sun, to shine and warm your face.
The way your smile did for me
When you looked my way.
I asked the moon to blanket you each night
The way you cuddled me and held me so tight.
When you feel lonely,
Remember me with joy.
Remember I was always happy
Just being by your side.
When everything grows quiet and still,
And the light gives way to the night
Remember, you’re never alone,
I’m right there by your side.
Remember our love, so purrfect and pure
It’s the kind that cannot die.
You can’t see me with your physical eyes,
But in your heart, I’ll always be alive.
A High 3/9/16
What a life I lived. I am one blest kitty fur shure. Fank you mommy and fank you all.
Mommy A here, first I want to thank you all for loving my baby. She loved hearing from you. I read all the comments to the girls and show them photos of all their friends. You’d be surprised how many they recognize. Lexi fought a good fight and I fought even when she gave up. In the end, she just couldn’t go on. So I had to be strong enough to let her go. I must tell you this was the hardest thing I’ve ever done. My heart isn’t just broken, it’s shattered into a million pieces. Lexi was a service cat to her last breath. She just couldn’t stop herself and save her strength. My life will never be the same. She will live on in my heart and memories. I know that we are blest, and the blessing in this is that Lexi is no longer in any pain. She’s once again, young and healthy and free of care. My heart hasn’t quite gotten to this realization yet, but we want to celebrate her life. She loved with her whole being and gave all she had. And that’s what we want to remember.
I want to thank all of you for your help throughout Lexi’s illness. Thank you for all the prayers and financial help, and all the goodies the girls have gotten. I’m just numb right now. Lexi was the longest relationship I’ve ever had. For nearly 17 years I’ve done nothing without her. She has been my faithful companion for so long I can’t remember a time when she wasn’t here. I had to be helped out of the office because I didn’t know how to leave without her. I just feel empty inside, like part of me is missing. A lot of you understand how I feel right now, and for those who don’t, I’m sorry you’ve never truly had the love an animal can give. Altho’ I feel lost, I wouldn’t trade a minute of the last 17 years. I am so blest that she chose me to be her mommy. Thank you for your patience and understanding.
With that, one last time, I will ask you to purrlease take care of mommy and sis Dezi. And mommy, you and Dezi take care of each other. It’s not goodbye, but I’ll see you again.
And I leave all of you with……..Be Blest!!!
Luvz and Hugs and Kitty Kissez Furever
Meowllo everypawdy. We hadn’t planned on writin’ a posty today as da wedder be just pawful. Da wind is howlin’ and da skies be wumblin’ and lightin’ up wiff stweaks of blue and white. But alas, da blogosphere has lost a dear soul and we have lost a dear furiend. We’ve only been here fur a little ovew a year now, so we don’t offen write these posties. Mostly cuz there’s a lot of you we didn’t or don’t know well enuff to do you justice in da passin’ of a dearly luvved furry one. But in this case, Nerissa, aka Nissy is one we met shortly after coming to blogville. We even wemember all da details. We wuz visitin’ our then new furiend Sammy from One Spoiled Cat and he was posting an award. We still didn’t unnewstand awards and such, but Sammy sed hims gweat pal Nissy had passed it along to him. He mentioned Nissy had been round da blogosphere fur a very long time and was a special kind of kitty. We fawt dat was a weally cool name and just had to go and find out hoo this Nissy was.
So we clicked on hims name and went stwaight over. At da time Nissy and Seville was takin’ a twip wiff their egg beaters. Mouses As Nissy wuld say. We had no idea what this was all about. See da blogs we had stawted followin’ was mostly like ours, they told ‘bout events round their house and such. So a twip wiff egg beaters? You can tell we don’t read much fiction here. Our maginnations kuldn’t hawdly wrap our bwain round it. But we wuz drawn in and kept goin’ back to read more. Nissy was always nice to us when he came by to visit. He didn’t tweat us like newbies and we don’t fink he evew spoke a cwoss word to anypawdy. He had a heart of gold and was always welkumin’.
Nissy’s gone afur his time. Cuz he was let down by da VETs and da dwug manufactuwers as so many of our kitty furiends awe. So little is known ‘bout feline healff and tweatments. Fur years everyfin’ has been based on canine tweatments. Scientists awe just beginnin’ to learn dat da feline body be diffewent and wesponds diffewently than canines. Our physiology and psychology awe completely diffewent and we need science to catch up wiff feline medicine. We hate dat Nissy be gone but hims will never be furgotten. He will live on in da hearts of all he touched and in da bits and bytes of da innernet furever. We send our purrayers to hims furmily. We will miss you Nerissa, but you awe no longer in pain and fur dat we awe furever gwateful. Mommy sez dat Nissy be back in heaven now wiff God and playin’ in fields of nip wiff our very own Ransom, Lucky Devon and Shad. And dat wez’ll see him again sumday. Purrlease go by and let da furmily know yous finkin’ ‘bout them.
Till da next time…………………………………..Be Blest!!!